Those moments
When you stare at your phone waiting for something to happen, but nothing does.
Posted January 22, 2012 at 3:03pm
And what sucks is is that I know you’re upset and all I want to do is comfort you but I know the reason why you’re hurt is because of me.
Posted January 22, 2012 at 3:35am
You’re speaking out of anger and resentment. It really hurts that you’d say all those things. You want someone to blame because you rather blame someone than remember the good things, cause it hurts to much. Maybe I am to blame. But I do want to thank you for everything. In all honesty, I know I never showed it, but I really appreciate everything you’ve done for me. You really don’t understand - you gave me everything you had - and that means a lot to me. I really don’t know how it got to this point. I really wish it didn’t. I wish I could give you everything you wanted. Of course I am going to miss you. You were my best friend. It’s going to be so hard not talking to you, God it really is. I just hope that everything works out in the end.
Posted January 22, 2012 at 3:29am
It’s a difference from loving somebody and being in love with somebody. You could love anybody but when you’re in love with somebody you’re looking at it like this, you’re taking that person for what he/she is, no matter what he/she looks like or what he/she does. But you could be in love and you can fall out of love too. You might stop being in love with them, but never stop loving that person.
— Lauryn Hill, Doo Wop (That Thing)
Long train rides.
There’s something about a long train ride that is so calm and relaxing. Staring out the window and watching trees, cars, and people passing by. Being in a train station too, wondering where people’s next destination is. It’s interesting how much time you have to really think about things. I was never good at taking time to just think. About anything really. Life, friendships, relationships, the past, present, and future. Something about long train rides. A sense a clarity, maybe. Then again, it might just be John Mayer talking.
Last train ride from Paris to Amsterdam with my mom. She’s sleeping now. But it’s been a great vacation and getaway these past 15 days. Long, yes. But so worthwhile. Every place I’ve been to has been so beautiful. But what I’ve admired the most is the culture and people I’ve met in each country. From Germany, Switzerland, Italy, France, and lastly Holland.
Two more days. A little ready to go home, but nonetheless it’s been wonderful so far. Also, it’s one of the last times before college being able to spend a lot of time with my family. So I’m appreciating every moment of it.
